a journey a destiny...
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
What Am I Missing Here?
Nothing actually. I nearly forgot I have a blog coz too much concentrate on playing games via Facebook..lol. What more? I totally forgot that I had 2 myspace accounts that I hadn't visited more than a year now. But my lame excuse will be: bad connection. That refers to how hard it is to buffer mp3 songs from myspace music accounts up till now. My connection lames all the way.
Anyway, happy Ramadhan to all Muslims. it is the 17th day already we're doing our fasting. Moreover, I'll be having my holiday like a week before Syawal's rising *happy*. So cheer up people, do your best before the victory comes.
I love blogging though, but it seems my mind is not cleared these past few months. Lots of bad things here and there. Broken wishes..crushing dreams. It's too good to be true they say... Oh well, life goes on and will always be going on until your last breath.
Anyway, happy Ramadhan to all Muslims. it is the 17th day already we're doing our fasting. Moreover, I'll be having my holiday like a week before Syawal's rising *happy*. So cheer up people, do your best before the victory comes.
I love blogging though, but it seems my mind is not cleared these past few months. Lots of bad things here and there. Broken wishes..crushing dreams. It's too good to be true they say... Oh well, life goes on and will always be going on until your last breath.
Aslan (still breathing wild)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I Hate
Haven't been blogging for a while now. My laptop is currently having a graphic card problem. Moreover, I'm a bit reluctant to send it for a repair since lots of top secret documents inside it. Not that I don't trust any PC shops for my graphic card replacement. It's just when it comes to secret things especially documents I did for my work and are rather confidential to outsider eyes, I tent not to jeopardize it. So it remains "dead" for a while until I have time to take it and think of how to make my lappy unleashes again.
Speaking of times, yet we're still busy at home. No maid to clean our household and stuffs. I consider myself a multi-maid but not that 100% multi dou cuz there's my wife doing her jobs too. I'm still pissed off of our maid; how the problems occurred just becoz she went back to her country and didn't want to return back not until her father's health is okay. I'm still wondering why she told us that late, like it was like nearly a month of her stay in her country then she told us that she has to take care of her dad. Why not she just told it earlier so it's easier for us to find her replacement and not have to take the risk of being killer busy with our jobs, kids and chores especially when my son is schooling again and my wife with her afternoon course until the end of this January. *pfft*
I remembered seeing my son letting her go on the day she left us with the travel agency's car. I watched my son's cool face, as he understood the maid had to leave him (again) in his cool face; hoping a month after that she would return back like the time she went home after her 2 year's contract expired (twice within 4 years). Being together with us for more than 4 years, since my son's birth, was a long journey. I cannot resist to stop my son (especially my daughter) to bond with the maid because she was like "in the family" too and she was the one of was taking care of 'em when we're not at home. When we told him that the maid is no longer with us, he was so damn mad - crazy mad, and demanding our maid's return as if we're the one that not wanting her to come back to Brunei. That's how bonded and sincere my son was with our maid.
I hope with all the tasks we're doing now are worth it if she told us the truth. Otherwise, screw her if she lied to us. She just screwed my holidays and my joys of December, let alone my wife's.
Anyway, right now I can only check my facebook and surfing with my wife's lappy. Although I know it would bore her that have to share a lappy, I still have a desktop to surf with. Just it's upstairs since we're currently sleeping and doing our home activities downstairs. Oh well, I don't expect people to care much about how sux it is when I'm in trouble (i.e no laptop) coz sometimes I know I'm not that really important in people's life, rather than a parasite to their eyes. I don't give a damn either. My time is now, yours are next! So expect none from a parasite and go for the diamonds instead!!
When everything is done, I wanted to chill alone, concentrating with my car, doing my music and entertain myself with pride..hehe who else dude to understand me more than myself. But having a knocking snare is always a dream nowadays and I'm looking forward to that moment later on. So all apologies to those who are currently connected to things I'm doing but couldn't complete the missions together. Soon my friends, very soon.
Speaking of times, yet we're still busy at home. No maid to clean our household and stuffs. I consider myself a multi-maid but not that 100% multi dou cuz there's my wife doing her jobs too. I'm still pissed off of our maid; how the problems occurred just becoz she went back to her country and didn't want to return back not until her father's health is okay. I'm still wondering why she told us that late, like it was like nearly a month of her stay in her country then she told us that she has to take care of her dad. Why not she just told it earlier so it's easier for us to find her replacement and not have to take the risk of being killer busy with our jobs, kids and chores especially when my son is schooling again and my wife with her afternoon course until the end of this January. *pfft*
I remembered seeing my son letting her go on the day she left us with the travel agency's car. I watched my son's cool face, as he understood the maid had to leave him (again) in his cool face; hoping a month after that she would return back like the time she went home after her 2 year's contract expired (twice within 4 years). Being together with us for more than 4 years, since my son's birth, was a long journey. I cannot resist to stop my son (especially my daughter) to bond with the maid because she was like "in the family" too and she was the one of was taking care of 'em when we're not at home. When we told him that the maid is no longer with us, he was so damn mad - crazy mad, and demanding our maid's return as if we're the one that not wanting her to come back to Brunei. That's how bonded and sincere my son was with our maid.
I hope with all the tasks we're doing now are worth it if she told us the truth. Otherwise, screw her if she lied to us. She just screwed my holidays and my joys of December, let alone my wife's.
Anyway, right now I can only check my facebook and surfing with my wife's lappy. Although I know it would bore her that have to share a lappy, I still have a desktop to surf with. Just it's upstairs since we're currently sleeping and doing our home activities downstairs. Oh well, I don't expect people to care much about how sux it is when I'm in trouble (i.e no laptop) coz sometimes I know I'm not that really important in people's life, rather than a parasite to their eyes. I don't give a damn either. My time is now, yours are next! So expect none from a parasite and go for the diamonds instead!!
When everything is done, I wanted to chill alone, concentrating with my car, doing my music and entertain myself with pride..hehe who else dude to understand me more than myself. But having a knocking snare is always a dream nowadays and I'm looking forward to that moment later on. So all apologies to those who are currently connected to things I'm doing but couldn't complete the missions together. Soon my friends, very soon.
Aslan (...coz diamonds are forever :p)
Friday, January 02, 2009
December 2008
The end of December would probably be the busiest month in my life. Despite of being without maid up til now, it didn't stop us from having family fun with my in laws and of course nephews and nieces. Stayed at Centerpoint Hotel for 2 nights and 3 days, having ourselves busy buying stuffs and gadgets at The Mall's expo and doing our outside dinners with the rest of my in laws were some good memories though we didn't enjoy ourselves to overseas like some of other people. We would but some of us were working during school holidays.
Well, I was on my shift duties during my stay in my hotel room. Sometimes, it wasn't as fun as others who had 100% feels of holidays without even thinking of getting up early and have to be punctual on things (work). So the rest of my after shifts were joining others for shopping and dining. I didn't have the proper rest I need. Hence, when we're home again, everything was like a mess. You know, still tired and eventually had to go for work the day after that.... Until now the weariness is still here.
My kids were happy although they did miss their so called auntie (our maid) which will never come back due to her personal reason of taking care of her sick father (hope that's true, otherwise screw her badly!!). Of course it was payday and extra money from bonus, enjoy it a lot. Stuffs for us and for kids. And of course, the "top up" thing hope to go fine as plan :)
Aside from personal shopping spree, did have the chance to do some upgrades on my car. Thanx to my bro for the helping hand bringing the car to the workshop and did what had to be done. Otherwise, I would miss the end of year offers for mod stuffs coz if everything had to be done by myself, it would take ages to happen..haha.
Now it is a new year. Some finds it as a time for a new resolution, a new beginning, a new task. As for me, I just want to improve my life one step further. To be the best father and husband to my family and to understand each and everyone of 'em more and more. And ummm, of course, to facebook real bad again..hahaha. Whatever it is, life goes on...just go with the flow.
Aslan (chill!!!)
Aslan (chill!!!)
Labels: Life
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
BZ
That's how it is these days. Been so damn busy with life and the without maid thing really a big pain in da butt at the moment. Some activities were made; with families and my car. Anyway I'll be updating some pics later on. Totally not have the time to edit pics and uploading it. And I'm still attached with Facebook whilst my other tabs are concentrating with eBaying stuffs and Brudirect Classified Ads..haha.
Aslan (...tired and red...)
Aslan (...tired and red...)
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Payday Payback
Wow, pretty busy nowadays. Maidless, working, houseworks, a little bit of car trimming (less than what I've expected due to the maidless thing), 40% tired than before; but we are actually happy with what we're achieving nowadays. Life is more meaningful when you do hard works on your own; keeping your family under one roof with patience and integrity.
Anyway, today is a big December Rain for Bruneian people. Payday and bonus in one go like last year. My wife and I had to go to the ATM Machines after 8.30pm to avoid queuing that we hate the most...huhu. Yea, no queues, everything went smooth. But couldn't go for shopping of course cuz lots of us are more likely to stay more hours at supermarkets rather than at home. It's normal, so we'll pass this normal issue by staying at home and enjoy our busy life here before we go shopping ourselves a few days from now.
Oh well, tomorrow we'll be staying in Centerpoint though. The most strategic place besides Rizqun. Because of the maidless thing and I'm now working, we do not have the possiblity of staying far from Brunei :( Someday maybe. Will post more later on, have a pleasant night though!
Aslan (hope to have the time to watch Twilight at Mall!!!)
Anyway, today is a big December Rain for Bruneian people. Payday and bonus in one go like last year. My wife and I had to go to the ATM Machines after 8.30pm to avoid queuing that we hate the most...huhu. Yea, no queues, everything went smooth. But couldn't go for shopping of course cuz lots of us are more likely to stay more hours at supermarkets rather than at home. It's normal, so we'll pass this normal issue by staying at home and enjoy our busy life here before we go shopping ourselves a few days from now.
Oh well, tomorrow we'll be staying in Centerpoint though. The most strategic place besides Rizqun. Because of the maidless thing and I'm now working, we do not have the possiblity of staying far from Brunei :( Someday maybe. Will post more later on, have a pleasant night though!
Aslan (hope to have the time to watch Twilight at Mall!!!)
Labels: Life
Monday, December 01, 2008
A December To Dismember
I was about to feel sorry of not logged in to my FB for quite sometimes now. The first reaction when I surfed there was like, hmmm, new style, hidden applications, not crowded like before. I updated my profile pic, sniffing around my friends' profiles, doing comments and say hi to those I used to communicate with. After a while, the nightmare came back. The heavy loading and stuffs...wtf. I was (and still am) bored with that. Is it my connection sucks? Or do everyone here in general experience the lag of FB? I am not quite sure actually, nor I keened enuff to delve deeper about this lame matter.
Anyway, I'd booked a 6 days special leave (that is provided by my department to all our staffs) last 2 months ago starting from today's 1st Dec till 6th of Dec. The reasons were to have myself rest from work, doing what I wanted to do; jamming, cars, videos and something that I wanted to enjoy it myself. 6 days aren't that long for a holiday right? And after the holiday, some officers at work were requesting me to do a favor to help 'em doing programming stuffs for our department's big sport event that will be done this 18th-22nd of Dec. I wasn't that anxious of helping at first. But why not? Who knows it would be fun besides having experiences waiting to be gained?
Sleeping on the sofa, didn't want to sleep on her bed
Shit happened. My maid asked to go back to her homeland, due to her father's sickness that is becoming worse day by day...and she planned to go back on 1st Dec. Ring a bell? 1st Dec??? My supposed to be a great holiday thingie?? Instead of fun, 1st Dec becomes a hardwork at home! My wife and myself are now managing our home and kids 100%! Dude, I thought December would be fun. You know, the holiday things, the grand sale things...now ruin. The maid set a month for her unexpected holiday. So a month is me without all the great things I imagined I would do during this month...!I am a bit dissapointed, frustrated and such. Have to cancel my participation with the sport events. Have to call my officers to release me from such an event. Have to sacrifice all the funs with houseworks and being a good dad. And probably I've to add another 10 days or more for my emergency leave before my wife has her own holiday leave. Everything is crushing my brain. I loathed my maid for giving me a terrible moment in my life.
Every entertainment that concerns with kids' happiness is now inside our bedroom
Yet, come to think of it...who am I to blame this and that? Life seems to be cruel, although it's not like that. The fact that we humans cannot predict our futures or to expect our future to be that damn good or bad. I am about to be one hell of a retarded human to hate my maid in which she has a serious thing to approach way back home and she isn't going home for fun. I think that we have to use our vast brains wisely to think fast with lots of options in minds how to handle unforeseened incidents so that eventhough you're stressed out, but actually you've saved yourself from being stupid of blaming someone to fulfil your ignorance (in which I did it too in the very first place, hehe).Oh well, life goes on y'know. Just go with the flow. Dalam pahit ada manisnya...
Aslan (the good side is that my Afrina will bond to us again)
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Time Passed By
The heat of Hari Raya is now slowing down. As for a family of my wife, it's time for a wedding ceremony. My younger bro-in-law will soon to be married by next week. Poor him, he was sleeping when me and my wife arrived at my in law's house to fetch Aiman, Afrina and our maid who was there for like hours and my maid was to help my older sister-in-law babysat her newborn baby.
Did you see me on an iGallop???
I saw my son playing iGallop, you know, kinda riding a horse thingie in his mind since the application was seemed to be like that, lol. I rode myself too, 6 months of not doing it eversince we moved to our own rental house. Like, gosh, that felt good in the ass. What else I did today? Iwas Osiming myself too, I had this backache for days. Lack of sleep and probably tired that like I said, I am immune to a simple tiredness.
Osim's handheld always sickening me
The only three of us covering those loads of souveniers
Yeap, soon there weren't 3 of us no more; there were lots of us packing and it was really fun. We managed to pack 1000 souveniers straight with all helping each other out including my children and my nephews. That was how helping each other did when all is done patiently :) I bet Mr Er will be surprised when he wakes up soon, thee hee heee.
Awesome helps from the family
Panuh satu bilik tamu!! The rest were put inside big boxes. The above pics are still in need of more boxes!!
Anyways, I didn't blogging very often nowadays. A bit busy, and I've things bugging my mind lately. Hope the one I (kinda) dream of becomes reality very, very soon. I thank my bro and my wife for making my life more enjoyable than before :)
Aslan (cheers!!)
Labels: Celebrations, Families, Life
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Tired
Sorry guys for not posting any news lately. A bit of tired, though I did say I'm immune to it, haha. Work days had been very busy. So many things to do and required energy and mentality to obtain the best. Well, it wasn't that best. A little bit to it. Was just finished creating another blog, dizzied myself searching for xml templates which I wasn't very familiar of, lol. Need to sleep but hey, it's CSI Miami's repeat on air, gotta watch it first! Will post some update later.
Cheers and have a nice sleep.
Cheers and have a nice sleep.
Aslan (I bet this morning will be another busy day eventhough I'm not working)
Sunday, October 12, 2008
A Journey...A Destiny
Heavy smoke from the (early) morning exhaust, otherwise, my car needs an overhaul!
After rain, it was cold. The scenery was lovely though
The road was like everyone is dead. In fact it was 6.06am, Sunday; no one keen on driving early on Sunday :p
Home at last. After midnight shift, still need a fresh nescafe to avoid my brain from being lagged due to lack of sleep
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Fake Friends Do Suck
BOO HOO CLAPPING SONG
I walk alone, I’m lonely
Why should we hear your problems?
I sit at home, I’m crying
Don’t wanna know, we don’t care
My baby’s gone, she left me
Suits you right boy, you now it
My world gone wrong, please help me
We have no time, now beat it!
And everyday, we share our dreams
And every night, we laugh at things
Now you don’t care, now you don’t feel
So many friends, now where they’ll be?
Now you tell me…
Carburetor Dung - Songs For Friends (1993)
Monday, October 06, 2008
Back To Square One
Certainly the joy is over. It's not like an end of the world over kinda thing, it's just the fun is less because everyone is start to go for daily work today. That goes for school too; school is opened today. Saw secondary students waiting for buses as early as 6.15am today on my way back home from midnight shift. Not a good starter for everybody in Brunei I guess, since the mood of Hari Raya is still there but because of work and school stuffs, the fun is again, less. Eventually, everyone will looking forward for another weekend for another Hari Raya day, since Syawal is for a month. Open Houses are also done within this time too cuz I don't think a 7-days-Hari-Raya phenomena is valid anymore nowadays. The real phenomena will occur at least a month so in fact, we do feel the Hari Raya joyness for a month to compare it with like 10 years ago.
Heck, my son is in his bored-face today, lazy to get his early bath and due to some reasons, I let my son stay at home today. I know most of the people be it those who are working, teaching or studying would say yes if giving a chance of not to do those things today, hehe. Let Tuesday be the Monday then (tapi jangan amalkan selalu, hehe).
Aslan (every midnight shift is considered as Monday)
Heck, my son is in his bored-face today, lazy to get his early bath and due to some reasons, I let my son stay at home today. I know most of the people be it those who are working, teaching or studying would say yes if giving a chance of not to do those things today, hehe. Let Tuesday be the Monday then (tapi jangan amalkan selalu, hehe).
Aslan (every midnight shift is considered as Monday)
Thursday, September 25, 2008
*Blah*
Got back from work quite late, arrived at home like Sungkai for 3 mins already. The briefings were so exaggerating for those who were going to take over our working shift. Pretty stupid I think. The briefings should be done in summary, to give us the chance to go home early so we could prepare our Sungkai with our families (except those who take about an hour to arrive home from work, that's a pity of course). Some senior officers do think relevant in this case; thinking of giving a chance for 12.00pm-6.00pm shifters to go home early in despite of Sungkaing at home rather than while driving. But some are like today's officer; lame and retarded. Pffft 'em and poor us, sinned ourselves with crazy mumblings and curses...lol. Anyways, I'm at home now, relaxing, playing with my kids...ahhh, it's good to be home. Tomorrow is another longday shift. Cheers.
Aslan (I'm sleeply but I don't sleep that easily)
Message Of The Day
Don't really feel like blogging today, nothing interesting happened anyway. It was all about work, mingle with friends during work and see friends in the states of dejection, depression and not forgetting happiness. Life is just like that. Had my sungkai at work again along with our senior officer and storied ourselves about the tragic incident that had occurred in our department, been pitied our friends and stuffs like that. Too sensitive to discuss here anyway. Likewise, life goes on, and still goes on and on. We just take care of ourselves and do chill out whether you are in deep pressure, coz you are (actually) NOT alone.
Aslan (strange enuff I myself sometimes feel lonely when tension meets the eye)
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Headache
Didn't blog yesterday night. Got this heavy headache before and after Sungkai. Had to get a little sleep until nearly 9pm but the pain didn't leave me alone. Surrendered myself with 2 tablets of Panadol. The pain was fully gone away after midnite when I was at my midnite shift. Not a good day to start my work precisely!
Now I'm at home. It's 7.35am, haven't sleep since last night (of course I'm not sleeping last night since I was at work *hmmmpff*), doing a buystop/sellstop on my trade and surfing the net before I take my sweet cold nap after this :) Chow Cin Cau!
Now I'm at home. It's 7.35am, haven't sleep since last night (of course I'm not sleeping last night since I was at work *hmmmpff*), doing a buystop/sellstop on my trade and surfing the net before I take my sweet cold nap after this :) Chow Cin Cau!
Aslan (Always sanak parut bila sahur makai uniform!!)
Monday, September 15, 2008
Monday Sux?
Well, not really. My early work shift on Monday means I'll have at least 2 off days in return, from 0600-1200 hours and will be back for work on Thursday's midnite. A friend asked to join him scouting for used Japanese branded wheels somewhere in Mulaut but I refused. I would love to but it's a fasting month - I am soooo not immune to hungry, hehe. Next time my friend, after Raya would be nice!
I'm at home, checking my trades. Nice profits. I love trading when my predictions are correct! Meanwhile, my wife is with his friend Mrs Gujul went to Shop @ Sarah's for some bags or other accessories maybe. It's Mrs Gujul that wanted to go there, my wife is just accompanying her. I am a bit hungry. Would prepare some onion-cutting, potato-peeling (is that the right word??) etc for Sungkai later. Umm, maybe watching Wanted, lent by Mr Amir The Legend (how do you like that name Mir, haha) or maybe to make my day simpler, watching my fave Astro's AFC and let meself drown in the pit of starvation, huhuhu!!
Aslan (still sleepy)
I'm at home, checking my trades. Nice profits. I love trading when my predictions are correct! Meanwhile, my wife is with his friend Mrs Gujul went to Shop @ Sarah's for some bags or other accessories maybe. It's Mrs Gujul that wanted to go there, my wife is just accompanying her. I am a bit hungry. Would prepare some onion-cutting, potato-peeling (is that the right word??) etc for Sungkai later. Umm, maybe watching Wanted, lent by Mr Amir The Legend (how do you like that name Mir, haha) or maybe to make my day simpler, watching my fave Astro's AFC and let meself drown in the pit of starvation, huhuhu!!
Aslan (still sleepy)
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Ramadhan
It's not too late I think for me to say happy fasting to all Muslims worldwide. As for me, I do fasting hard every year. Why? Because I am not immune to hungry, lol. Do catch headache when the clock goes like 4-5 pm. Do loooove to stay home rather than roaming. And I'm planning to have off from work next year's Ramadhan since I think I dislike working during this fasting month (due to some personal reasons). Now it's like 2.43 am, still haven't slept. Would go for "sahur" later, a short nap after that before I'm off to work. Semangat keraja hari Minggu lah katakan~~
Aslan (currently a bit hungry)
Aslan (currently a bit hungry)
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Why I Blogged Myself Again??
Due to frustration. I was really into Facebook like from last year, too fanatic with the applications given and totally into one of its dominating games ever, My Heroes Ability. The frustration set in when it took me like forever to sign in, minutes of opening each of its famous application/game and another minutes of delving it. It lagged. It lagged like shit I say. More than 10 days without facebooking is strange, but I do get used of it now. Heck, I'd read one of the local blogger's site that a friend suggested her to do a blog just to insert the pics. Meaning: uploading pictures via blogsite are more sufficient than doing the same thing on facebook. How retarded is that? It's an opinion, you don't have to judge; you don't have to comment it. Just read and enjoy my loathe!
Anyway, I'd been blogging a year or two before (Rated666 was what it once was called). I deleted it cuz I wanted to make a new one. So here it is, my new blog; more like a daily journal of me, whether it would bore you, make you laugh, make you think...I don't care much. It's a simple life that I see, I live and embrace.
Frustration (again)? It's always inside me. Happiness? Rarely but I love it when it comes.
Aslan (one angry dude from Tutong)
Anyway, I'd been blogging a year or two before (Rated666 was what it once was called). I deleted it cuz I wanted to make a new one. So here it is, my new blog; more like a daily journal of me, whether it would bore you, make you laugh, make you think...I don't care much. It's a simple life that I see, I live and embrace.
Frustration (again)? It's always inside me. Happiness? Rarely but I love it when it comes.
Aslan (one angry dude from Tutong)
